Moments of Uncertainty

You know, when you're in the middle of an interview, you try to quickly come up with an answer that will entice the hiring manger in order to get a second interview? Well, today was just a day for that. I went in the interview thirty minutes early and had the opportunity to chat with some of the workers there. When it was time for me to get interviewed, I went in the office and sat in a chair. Most of you probably know the drill by now. A desk separates you from the interviewer and you just sit there for a good amount of time looking alert as possible. Then comes the questions being thrown at you. There are moments during the interview where I thought to myself, is he asking me a trick question? Should I answer them creatively or straight on? After some quick-second thinking, I blurted something out. At that moment, uncertainty invited itself in my head and started psyching me out. As I keep calm, I continued the interview with pure personality as much as I can conjure up. After the interview, I went in the car and had some time to clear my mind and think. A smack of my hand met the corner of my head, just above my hairline and called myself stupid. Stupid in a way that right after the interview, that's when the creative juices came in and my mind exploded with ideas to answer the questions in a way that would seal the deal. UGH. I hate the fact that it happens like that. When I was driving back home, I repeatedly rehearse the line that could have been the, "oh yeah. he's the right candidate," over and over and over again. I've come to the realization that there's nothing else I could do to change it all. This exact thing happens every time, especially when taking an exam: you sit there staring at the question for a good ten minutes and was able to answer it, then after taking the exam, that's when you start to remember everything you crammed the night before. LOL. It's ridiculous. Anyway, the interview manager told me that they will review everything, and if considered, they will give me a call at around 5pm. If I don't get a call, then I know that I wasn't going to even move on to the next phase of the three part interview process. *Sigh.* It's really hard to sell yourself to people when you're just trying to start your career. Lesson learned. Now I know what to respond back to that certain question. Nothing comes easy. Four years of college done, now it's time to work even harder than ever. Whatever happens, I'm not going to give up and will continue to improve. I think now it the perfect time for nap. LOL. :)