Moments of Uncertainty

You know, when you're in the middle of an interview, you try to quickly come up with an answer that will entice the hiring manger in order to get a second interview? Well, today was just a day for that. I went in the interview thirty minutes early and had the opportunity to chat with some of the workers there. When it was time for me to get interviewed, I went in the office and sat in a chair. Most of you probably know the drill by now. A desk separates you from the interviewer and you just sit there for a good amount of time looking alert as possible. Then comes the questions being thrown at you. There are moments during the interview where I thought to myself, is he asking me a trick question? Should I answer them creatively or straight on? After some quick-second thinking, I blurted something out. At that moment, uncertainty invited itself in my head and started psyching me out. As I keep calm, I continued the interview with pure personality as much as I can conjure up. After the interview, I went in the car and had some time to clear my mind and think. A smack of my hand met the corner of my head, just above my hairline and called myself stupid. Stupid in a way that right after the interview, that's when the creative juices came in and my mind exploded with ideas to answer the questions in a way that would seal the deal. UGH. I hate the fact that it happens like that. When I was driving back home, I repeatedly rehearse the line that could have been the, "oh yeah. he's the right candidate," over and over and over again. I've come to the realization that there's nothing else I could do to change it all. This exact thing happens every time, especially when taking an exam: you sit there staring at the question for a good ten minutes and was able to answer it, then after taking the exam, that's when you start to remember everything you crammed the night before. LOL. It's ridiculous. Anyway, the interview manager told me that they will review everything, and if considered, they will give me a call at around 5pm. If I don't get a call, then I know that I wasn't going to even move on to the next phase of the three part interview process. *Sigh.* It's really hard to sell yourself to people when you're just trying to start your career. Lesson learned. Now I know what to respond back to that certain question. Nothing comes easy. Four years of college done, now it's time to work even harder than ever. Whatever happens, I'm not going to give up and will continue to improve. I think now it the perfect time for nap. LOL. :)

Life lesson #___!

Second chances. We all fall. We spend time being upset about what we did and would wish for time to turn back and undo our mistake(s). Unfortunately, as much as we fantasize for some mad scientist to invent a time machine, we fixate ourselves in the present psyching ourselves out and lose sleep just thinking about the scenario, playing it over and over again. .  .  . Well get over it! STOP wasting your time burning woods that was already been burnt out. Focus on what you have to do and motivate yourself. It's a life trial that tests our emotional endurance. Resilience is key. Adaptation is required. Like John Legend says, we're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go. Take it slow- oh- oh -oh -oh- JUST TAKE IT SLOW! Ultimately, just take that second chance and never look back. Remember, you're not a time traveler. Life is what we make out of it, it's not the end of the world. . .  yet. LOL.

#ShitJustGotReal

UGH. As much as I hate the phrase; "shit just got real," it's in fact true. Now that I'm back from D.C., I had no idea that life here in the West Coast is very. . . slow?. . . chill (that's a better word), compared to the East Coast. To be honest, I miss it over there. I miss the lifestyle and the way everything is structured and laid-out. Perhaps one of the reasons why I feel that way is because it's different; different from the usual, different from what I've grown accustomed  to, different from how my life is now, different. . . . in a way that I feel like I belong there. Isn't that weird? At least that's how I feel about it. Now that I'm back from D.C., I've been out of the loop lately. I feel like, I don't belong here anymore and that I'm just counting down my days for when I finally walk across that stage and be done with school. Seeing how everyone is heading out in different directions, I feel like, shit really just got real: Some will stay for another year to finish up, some will go right on ahead to grad school, some would take a year off and go to grad school, and the rest, (*raises hand* OOO like me), will try to get assimilated into the world of adulthood: cultured with responsibilities, priorities, and daily  routines that actually gets an individual paid hourly from doing so. Yes, shit just got real, but I feel like it's been like that since the time when we all graduated high school. Real in a sense that the majority of us decided to continue on to college, while the rest bravely tackled "reality."

As commencement day is fast approaching, I'm even more nervous about life after college. I have till the end of this month to at least snatch a job and not be stuck at home. Pressure is even more apparent than ever. Shit, now that's real. I know it's serious shit, but why stress over it? I keep telling myself that but, 'myself-self' is still processing the idea and is still squeezing the stress ball. As long as I put my mind into it, things will eventually fall into place. Keyword: eventually. We all know that it's not happening over night but, keeping a positive attitude is always the key. Now that I'm back, I'm seeing this as a foreword in my life: an introduction to how my chapters unfold. I know ya'll are tired about hearing cliche shit over and over again. It's real shit ok?! I can't help it. LOL.

Another day is coming, time is flying. Life is not as easy, breezy, beautiful, cover, girl, I know it's cheesy. Honey, what you need today? "Love you long time," is always what I say. Shit just got real, no shit, life is the greatest deal, it goes on, ya feel?

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