Literally. Missing-In-Action.
Unemployment is not the greatest thing. It's not the greatest feeling. It's not cracking. I feel static; not progressing, stuck, and useless. It hard to even make a tiny move in this sluggish economy. It's been five months and counting. Student Loans notices came in today and it hit me: I NEED TO MOVE MY ASS! The fact of the matter is, that's what I've been doing the entire time. When an opportunity opens, it's either I don't have enough experience, or over qualified. Especially when I'm almost close to locking-in that position, they were impressed but thought my qualifications and experience is not enough, too green, and went with someone "better-fit-for-the-position." I just don't get it anymore. They saw potential, they saw my enthusiasm, I gave them everything they could ask for and more; yet, I didn't fit what they were looking for. By now, I'm used to, "We appreciate your interest. . . and wish you well in your future endeavors. . ." or ". . . . wish you the best of luck in your job search." Unless you're a Jeanie or have "lucky" dust to dash over me, I'll take your well-thought-out-let's-not-hurt-his-feelings-but-let's-do-it-nicely-rejection letter. I'm tired. I'm tired of trying, using all of my energy and effort, only to fail. Once again, I'm finishing last. I spent four years of my college life, busting my ass off, investing my time and attention to earn my degree, be in debt, and turn out to be unemployed. Was it really worth it considering that I just drowned myself in debt and now must find a job to pay it all back? Education is key to success, yet I'm second guessing that at the moment. I find it funny how most of the entry-level positions require a high school diploma/GED, with 5 or more years of related experience, only to do the basic stuff, and get paid hourly (most start at minimum wage): Seriously? You telling me that four years I spent working hard to just get that degree in the mail boils down to this? I feel like nothing is coming my way. I'm seriously considering doing basic jobs may it be in retail, restaurants, car-wash locations, or the random guy spinning that sign (at least he's making money!). Really America? The land of opportunities? With rising unemployment rates, rising gas prices, health care disparities, broken education system, to the "promising" economy, was it even all worth it? I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I'm trying all I can. I'm staying positive. I'm being patient. I'm praying. I'm thankful. The five or so of being unemployed allowed me to really appreciate my family and the remaining friends I have. So, I'm letting it all out to the Universe! Leaving all my problems and worries behind. I sill believe. I'm still very hopeful that an opportunity will come my way. It's almost Christmas and all I want is to have a stable job. Doing things that I want to do require money, that means getting a job. I never imagined to be in this situation. Education? I don't know anymore.
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