Voice Within
written by: Jesson Rata
Pressure. Oh I wish I'm not struggling to free away from under.
They continue to push down with words of threats only bringing me down.
They think it's easy, when in fact, they only suggest the easy way out. . . they're very concern,
afraid that I fail on my own; Failure. The only way I'm going to be able to pick myself up is to fall. . . down to
my own mistakes, aches, for my own sake, this is what I need to endure, this is what I have to take.
Like them, I am also afraid, but I've come to believe in myself. Have they come to believe in me?
I ignore their blasting of rhetorical. A blank mask I put on, only to space them out, I stare at nothing while
they resume to pester me with their knowledge about what I should do. In reality, they know nothing.
They compare me to others. They assume nonchalantly. They don't know me.
I feel trapped. Contained in a bubble of oppression: hindering my ability to sprout and nourish my own.
Perhaps, they still think I'm the little boy they once adored. They've forgotten that time aged me
to this tall, slim, song bird who never stopped dreaming.
Now, I'm pursuing to achieve inner peace. For that is what gives me strength, courage, and determination
whilst in the midst of the noise and trouble, I keep my composure. . . and still be calm in my heart.
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Hiatus, DONE! Took me long enough to be back here on my blog and post something. I've been meaning to blog ever since my move back home, here in Sac. Welcome back, ME! As far as updates, it's been a roller coaster ride so far. Nothing exciting yet. I'm still conjuring up my plan of action. Let me just say that it feels good to not worry about school work. It's even more stressful to think about my own life at the moment. I'm sick and tired of people asking me about 'what am I going to do.' Seriously, people just need to calm down and let me have my own time to think and enjoy my free time for a while. For sixteen years, I was always on my toes, pacing everywhere trying to fulfill my role as a student. That part is now over. I'm still a 'student' in a way that I will never stop learning. I'm done trying to please everyone. It's time to please me, now (as weirdly as that sound). Idc. It's time to really go for something that I've been meaning to be since birth! I need to just go for it now, rather than wait and eventually not do it at all. Like a ninja, I am quietly making my moves. You will know all about it once I get there. Soon. XD
Song of the week: Wipe Your Eyes by Maroon 5 #Overexposed
